For years, I felt this massive guilt about my lack of pastoral vision. It wasn't that I didn't try. At least a couple of times a year, I've gone away for a personal visioning retreat -- and usually come back with something less than inspiring.
Now, all the writers and motivational speakers say that an effective church must have a visionary leader. Over the years, there have been several board and staff meetings where they've tried to squeeze a little vision juice out of me -- but to no avail.
I'm not wired to make up a vision. (In weak moments, I can relate to George Bush Sr.'s lament, "I just don't get this vision thing!")
But then, a liberating thought hit me. I DON'T HAVE TO MAKE UP A VISION!!
Vision is not something you MAKE UP -- It is something you SEE!
In fact, when someone makes up visions -- they're hallucinating!
Instead of praying, "Lord, help me create a vision for our church", I've simply started praying the blind beggar's prayer: "Lord, help me see!"