Several times, over the years, I've heard visionary pastors use this phrase in sermons and conversation:
I don't have the gift of mercy!
When they say that, it's never in an apologetic manner. They don't seem to feel bad about being "mercy deficient." In fact, it's more like they're bragging about it.
Whenever I hear a pastor boast about unmerciful he is, I cringe.
"Oh, don't say that!! If you struggle with being a merciful person -- that's a spiritual maturity issue! That means you don't love people very much. Why would any pastor brag about not loving people?
People who operate without mercy tend to be bullies and jerks. Who wants a bully or a jerk for a pastor?
Jesus said, "Blessed are the merciful, for they shall obtain mercy."